My kid and her dreams of Eis Laden

I am so surprised that this blogging service still works. Which reminds me to maybe make a backup. 

Tonight at bed time my 5 year old spoke to me about how serious she is to open up an ice cream place. The kid first said I will work at the ice cream place nearest to our home.. I said why not open one of your own.

So her argument - but u live here at home, how do I open. Will you move out? 

I said how would people know u sell ice cream in your apartment. Kid said lets make a wood board with pretty ice carving and place it in front of our building,  everyone will know.

I said ok she thinks about marketing already. 

I told her ask around for capital investment and u can run it. She said ok i will ask you for all the money.

I said we need a place you see, so she said Mamma please can you ask the nearby bakery if they will move out for my ice cream place. 

I said no we rent a new place. Her words-  oh but i dont want to be far away from you. Kid assumed you would stay at the ice cream shop. So when I told her she can sleep at home, she somehow wasnt really convinced. 

She even said u can stay with me even when you are a grandmother. So I said oh so after you have kids. She said no I dont want kids because you need to get married and i dont like weddings. 

Man what a bed time conversation this one was.

I love you to moon, planets, sun and back my baby girl.

Crossing 30 Countries

Since the world changed in 2020, the chance to experience a new country has become a distant dream. But you live for the dreams dont you?

I have been thinking did I cross 20 and how close am I to my target of 50? I think 50 is too less right 

Let's see

1. India 🇮🇳 

2. Germany 🇩🇪 

3. Greece 🇬🇷 

4. Czech Republic 🇨🇿 

5. Italy 🇮🇹 

6. Switzerland 🇨🇭 

7. Spain 🇪🇸 

8. Portugal 🇵🇹 

9. Croatia 🇭🇷 

10. Slovenia 🇸🇮 

11. Austria 🇦🇹 

12. Hungary 🇭🇺 

13. Netherlands 🇳🇱 

14. Belgium 🇧🇪 

15. France 🇫🇷 

16. Luxembourg 🇱🇺 

17. Denmark 🇩🇰 

18. Sweden 🇸🇪 

19. Finland 🇫🇮 

20. Norway 🇳🇴 

21. USA 🇺🇸 

22. Malta 🇲🇹 

23.  UAE 🇦🇪 

24. Vatican 🇻🇦 

25. Lichtenstein 🇱🇮

26. Turkey 🇹🇷

27. Mexico 🇲🇽

28. England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

29. Wales 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿

30. Egypt 🇪🇬

31. Thailand 🇨🇷

32. Peru 🇵🇪

33. Bolivia 🇧🇴

34. Romania 🇷🇴

35. China 🇨🇳

36. Japan🇯🇵

37. Cyprus  🇨🇾

38. Poland 🇮🇩

39. Bosnia and Herzegovina🇧🇦

40.

I do need to update something so will be back soon 

Bucket list with my notes 

1. Nz - Dec to March

2. Aus - Sept to Nov , March to may may to oct Great barrier

3. Chile - nov to march

4. Morocco 7D

5. Tanzania June to oct

6. South Africa 

7. Maldives 3D

8. Seychelles 

9. Jordan 

10. Norway 8D

11. Scotland 3D

12. Ireland 2D

13. Iceland 7D

14. Canada

15. Equador

16. Kenia - aug to oct masai mara

17. Albania 6D

18. Argentina

19. Tunisia 7D

20. Brazil

21. Cuba 8D Nov to apr

22. Costa Rica 10D

23. Carribic Cruise from PR/ Dom republic 

24. Antarctica

25. Turkey _ Istanbul cappadocia - 5D

26. Oman

27. Montenegro - 5 days

28. Bhutan 7D

29. Georgia 

Random places 

Dolomites 5 days

Lake bled

Lofoten

Faroe Islands

How easy is it to forgive?

When the feeling of anger and aggravation starts becoming a constant so much so that it becomes a part of you, you do ask to find the way out. The way out is to forgive and forget. But isnt it simply the hardest thing to do? I as usual tried to Google my problems away. Answer was something which I am pondering on: forgiveness is what one needs for self peace and not for the concerned person. It is the only way to move on.  Also it doesn't really mean you are now ok with whatever happened but you have accepted it happened and can live with it. Well can you actually live with it? Isnt it simply the hardest thing to do? Some things hurt and they keep hurting you for long. I envy people who really can digest crap and move on. I dont want to, but at the expense of what? Is it worth it? Maybe not! Keep thinking.

And then we witnessed the northern lights

Isn't like Arctic and Northern Lights lately in everyones checklist? Or wasn't it like always? It was very spontaneous, that we found a trip which covered most part of our to dos. The price of around 600 odd euros per person seemed just kinda impossible to be true.. Never had we been to such trips organised in big groups but this somehow felt right. Oh boy weren't we in for a beautiful surprise! Little did we know this trip will truly become an unforgettable lifetime memory.

Once we landed in Stockholm and spent a day there it just felt like any other european capital city.  Just that the beers were really expensive. We started with a total bunch of strangers on a long overnight bus journey. At the light of dawn, or even before the frame started turning white and white and lots more of it. We all have school memories of describing our version of the artic region and I found myself placing these against the reality in front of me. But the charm and what one feels there is just something which I can't put to words. It a whole new world totally of it own up north and every frame is just like a wallpaper.

The next few days we had a packed iternary with the typical day time activities like dog sledging, snow mobiles etc which I initially honestly thought was just to pass the morning hours. But each activity bought us closer to the region and help understand the world there. It just made me realise that artic is just not only the lights and I stand myself corrected.

I still remember procrastinating scenarios for our chances of experiencing the lights. And the first night we saw none.. The anxiety was now even more since we had now only three more chances. The big frozen lake at the camp site outside kiruna offered the feeling of being alone in the open wilderness. The only company were the  unlimited Stars. I remember sitting in the kitchen as i heard northern lights.. northern lights.. it was our caretaker at the Inn informing us.. The three nights that followed were just sparkling memories . The green pictures  which you see are static but the lights aren't. They can move faster than ur head can and also move in shapes which u cant follow. The last night in Abisko with -27degress, very vividly visible since my eyelids were frozen with ice. It didn't really matter because we saw the lights dance in various colours, speed and patterns.  The spirals , the console lights, the speed rays and so much more. I am eternally grateful to have witnessed this truly magnificent natures blessing.

Aurora Borealis truly amazing !!!

You maybe sick

 How do you handle or address pain? Mental pain? What do you do when something unacceptable happens? Do you always let it go since that is the only way out? Is the only way out the right way how do you know. I feel strangled and in pain. A very deep deep pain. It hurts bad and I feel I can't breathe. Do I want to breathe - yes because that is what I Owe to my parents. Maybe if I hav to breathe then I need to find a way to. This is not the correct one.  I need help seriously help.

The unforgettable bumpy ride

Smiles and pure happiness is what the memories of those blessed 9 months bring to me. I never thought that I will enjoy and cherish my pregnancy and child birth so much that only for this phase I will want another one. 

The small tummy twirls to the excitement of new life and the feeling of self less love which I never experienced before. The panic attacks and the feeling of total strenght and by the end all was a walk in the clouds. I am truly blessed to have such a perfect pregnancy as I know this was kinda unreal. I always wished to keep my baby in me till like ever but she had other plans. 

2013, too soon oder???

Now that I am using my tongue differently and English seems a distant old friend its surely gonna be a task to pen this up. Year 2013 eeeu sound so sick I think the number 13 doesnt really go well in my books and this year well???? Somehow when you grow up life does have new plans plotted.

Now since almost 6+years to this life has changed and also not at the same time. The heart and the feelings are the same but yes the scented candles are slowly being replaced with medicines on my Nachtkonsole.. So much around has happened but I still find myself at the same place. I can relate however a lot to my parents and their struggle. Life does turn full circles. I don't think anything written here will make sense and it should not even. Prost to this part of life.