As life progresses it makes its self clearer. Now I understand the logic on why thers so much written and published about life in general and how to deal with it coz ya people and ya may be me need it. Its these middle years when you try to seek the meaning of your life when you kinda have everything else (or the hope) in place you just seek peace and happiness. But then when you know you have nothing close to any of these its just more n more painful. Its been years that I have just been cribbing and cribbing and somehow its become who I am .. I dont seem to accept that this is wht my life has given me and its on me to accept it as a gift. But then do I need it thats a different question.
Over the past years I knw I have changed as a person a little bit too much to even my liking. But its not a self decision rather a forced one and thats wht makes me even more a rebel. This is just not who I am or what I want to be why doesnt anyone get it. Ya I had my shares of errors but then was it such a sin? I never thought I would be living in a cage but then its sadly true. I can just see sunshine through the window and then ya like a dog go out walking at times and thats about it. I somehow think about all the house pets and what they must feel like and I sadly label myself as one. I know how do I have the right to say this and this aint true oh no no open your eyes Mr. this is the truth. I am trying to get out and fly but then its a never ending hope. You and me both know the chances of it is just way too thin and then like any other pet I need to like my cage and be grateful to this life that I am having. None the least I do get access to food (lol really) and I do get warmth and care and love (u must be kidding me). I am not gona be a pet I am a human and not a animal. Life needs to stop treating me like one, coz I can call on to death and defeat it.
Over the past years I knw I have changed as a person a little bit too much to even my liking. But its not a self decision rather a forced one and thats wht makes me even more a rebel. This is just not who I am or what I want to be why doesnt anyone get it. Ya I had my shares of errors but then was it such a sin? I never thought I would be living in a cage but then its sadly true. I can just see sunshine through the window and then ya like a dog go out walking at times and thats about it. I somehow think about all the house pets and what they must feel like and I sadly label myself as one. I know how do I have the right to say this and this aint true oh no no open your eyes Mr. this is the truth. I am trying to get out and fly but then its a never ending hope. You and me both know the chances of it is just way too thin and then like any other pet I need to like my cage and be grateful to this life that I am having. None the least I do get access to food (lol really) and I do get warmth and care and love (u must be kidding me). I am not gona be a pet I am a human and not a animal. Life needs to stop treating me like one, coz I can call on to death and defeat it.
