I am the Happiest of the Lot!!!

Met my friend yst, he made me think "I truly am happiest of the lot".
He narrated an incident of his attending a workshop wherein some 200 odd people had come. He said looking at their problems mine are so so nothing. I surely am the happiest!!
I asked him what were their problems?he replied
I met this group of Nepalese who had finally managed to run away from a sex racket!! I met so many people duped into Flesh Trade!! Brothers selling off their sisters!!! N what not!!!
He said one of my acquaintances met with an accident n she lost her leg in it!! She managed to call me and say take care of your Swine Flu!! I am ok I can manage!!! HUMANITY
I try to reco.. I meet so many students whose parents annual income is not even close to what we earn in a month!! I meet kids of Drivers, Rickshaw wala's, Farmers and I feel so so touched by seeing their attempts to make their kids study at Master levels!!. I see my maid with swollen face beaten up by her drunkard husband, giving her husbands reference for a Job to my dad!! I see the adversity of my family friend who got married in her late 30's just to find herself as a widow within 4 yrs of marriage with 2 kids... I see the life of a single mom trying to work day in an out and yet find her thrown on streets by her landlord coz of house rent due and see her grown up son yelling at her for not doing so and leaving her in anguish!! I see people losing their huts in the road expansion crying at the sight of the fallen debris of once upon a time their Mansion!! I see people fighting against cancer asking for financial aids for impossible treatments of their kins despite knowing theirs a miracle they are awaiting!! the list wouldn't end
Its amazing to see these people fight back!! Life sure has so so many masks n ugly faces and u have hardly faced any n still u crib so so much?? If people get back on their feet post all this, try to digest the trauma n try to live what keeps them Ticking?? HOPE!! HOPE that the sun will rise and embrace them with light and all would be pleasant and at ease soon!!
I aint writing this to preach or even to evoke sentiments or any.. Just wanted to do so to appreciate life better also to realize my faith in life!! and to appreciate the beauty of LIFE!!!

I aint an Author!!!

I think almost every week what do I write about?? now wht do I write about!! Then I feel wht boring stuff ya!! no topic to write either!! Life has just gotten even more topsy turvy!! My status reads CROSSROADS!!! I see myself at a square n all the options r displeasing!! all's obviously been scripted by me! I so hate all now but cant run away need to face it all naa!!!
My activities is something I wanted to write about!! was reading about alcohol withdrawal symptoms and I read it states more than 4 drinks a week is bad intake!! N I tried to refresh abt mine!! it wd run upto wht like 7 easily?? need to keep a tab!!
Have been involved in somethng which wd never make sense to any!! It doesn evn to me!!! Just in a position where I just don wana think n decide!! not ready to let go or compromise!!! not ready to keep anyone out not ready to keep anyone in!! I am faced with questions "Swap Whtz all this" then?? n how do I ans yaa!! coz I just don kno it myself!! I don know how did life become all this huge confusion!! I sometimes reco ya at the age of 24 I had dreamt I wd be at such ease n all was supp to have settled down!! But the more I try to decipher the more complex it gets!!! I just am heading no where ya!! Kno tht I m just tagging along a lot!!
Its so weird naa that ppl crave for love all over n me keeps pushing it off!! have had enuf of it types but selfish me keeps askin for more in a subtle way!! I really m so messed up n don kno how does all get so complicated over n over again!! Weird year this one has been!! never been so complex till date!! n have abs no idea wher its all heading too!! Just lost track of my wishes too coz none seem to be making sense any which ways!! I just don wana talk now n define any more relations!! I just want peace!! don know how!!!