Had just forgotten the reality , failed to digest the fact that you are born alone , you live alone and you die alone...
Its not necessary that all that you expect turns true and its so true only people who are close to you can hurt you, fine but then how much? Isnt there a limit to it? Its a pity when your mate fails to realise what you are going thru and even more dampening to know that all thats happening makes only a difference to you and ur partner doesnt even care a damn.
I knew love hurts and I knew i should not be involved but stupid crazy heart of urs doesnt just learn from mistakes. But almost nearing middle age arent you supposed to be matured enuf to manage your affairs better and learn to accept things, well you surely are and thats why u just think that atleast what you signed in for will stay coz thts wht commitment is, but then you wake up to a new world all together and your net worth is beyond negative how do you deal with all? Just learn to live through isnt it? Thats wht my moms generation did so will we be. I know hormones to go haywire and its way too too difficult to handle. I still cant digest why does it matter so damn much arent you well off without anything and isnt it high time to get out of your Fantasy, friction not really coz this seems unreal and not what had happened.
Cant help quoting someone: If you think Marriage is a solution to all your problems you are highly mistaken, I surely knew its not infact its a multiplier to your existing issues so then why get into it too? Coz you cant live alone and you need a mate and the saga goes on.
Somehow thought penning it down would help may be it wouldnt anymore coz its been a while and you really need sunlight
