Episode1:
Its such a small world... Just yst I was on ma frnds Mr. A's Scrapbook.. saw a Profile pic same as my frnd(Miss M)who is actually an acquaintance!!!Wen I looked closely realised the person was different.. Happned to realise that the guy(Mr. S) was my frnds(M's)fiance!!! N he(Mr. S) was frnds with my frnd(Mr. A). Now wen i call ma frnd(Mr. A) up he says.. dhh "he(Mr. S) has met U rmbr that day we were out for coffee n he had dropped in to say Hi!!! I had actually interracted with my Frnds(M's) Fiance.. N guess what none of them live in Pune!!!
Episode 2:
My senior from Marketing updates her profile as Committed.. I ask her who is the Guy.. N small world again the Guy works in my same building infact same Floor!!! N happens to be an acquaintance again!!!!
SMall Small World!!!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Somethng for Me :)))
Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around
Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm
And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around
Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm
And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
Perfect Day to start bloggin I supp!!!
M here.. somethng that i never thought abt, except 2 days bak wen a frnd showed me his blog!!! It was kinda gettin suffocated.. wanted a medium to put all of it out.. Hope this is the way!!!This moment this day this year I Don kno if I am sad or happy.. don kno if this was wht I waited for or dreaded about!!! don kno wher, wht, how or whom!!! Left in crossroad is somethng thts sure....n easy way to put it M Lost!! Pondering!! over : almost thru with one third of ma life n wen I think abt it.. its given me so so so much, much!!!somethngs that I oh so wanted!! Somethng tht I oh so never wanted!! Somethng that i made happen and somethng that I couldn just make it!!! so whys thers so much more quest????? U get whtever u want and then u decide to leave it... Why??? coz u hope theres sunshine on the other side.. Wait till u get there n u feel the darkness n the vacuum!!! Again Ponder is this what u wanted??? Nahh ther it goes again for a Toss....
Past three years have been a Roller Coaster of Emotions!!! Oh wait its wen I actually realised what are emotions in the 1st place.. I realised what it actually feels like wen u in Pain... Realised the soft inside of me which was always in for Brutal Attacks( Dumb ass)... My lacrymatic fluid realeasing nerves had been off for long, finally they realised their functions!! they opened the gates and also drained me away!!! Never have I cried this bad.. But my Jaw muscles did work on n off... Have had times wen unknown smiles used to surface all through!!! But then they didn really last... It probably is my mistake because i never made them stay back... Never made attempts to do so... Probably seeked solace in tears... Had some small things happening, had managed to scale some heights which did take me to conquering small everests in ma life... But still somethng in tht phase also remains unsatisfied,,, The Zest or Zeal to serve better...
Now the recent events.. Moved outta of my dream world into reality.. couldn really see a lot of helping hands.. Realised can count them with my fingers... of one hand thats the number that remain.. (In school i used to think how can mum n dad have such small no of friends.. how can they be so so anti social didn kno just ten yrs i wd be in the same position as them dhhhh learn from Life itself)..
Tough times never last is a book thats lying in ma shelf.. saw it today mrng n had a smile imm... Ya times the best healer... it does.. But ya like burns they would always manifest. Always sayin man u did this to me.. see now how dry n weak n lifeless have I become.. Then u ask.. wht did I do??? unknown mistakes n then they start ling up... U try to run ways but they seem to be so long that they inevitably reach u..... N the guilt that engulps... Nothng can beat that.. Its wht I am in at the moment..Saw my self go thru so so much... never thgt would take all bullshit of anyone on my face.. But was takin in any n everythng.. Simple coz I had lost myself n ma indentity in between all the guilt... U see the beggar who hasn eaten a thing u give him things with Fungus on it his tummy wont deny.. or may be a sponge just takes in everythng up... Accused for wht not... took all up... :(((( But yaa some point realised enuf cant take it anymore.. Cant live with the lost identity and an unknown to self.. Need to get me bak.... need to breath n breath fresh... need to live n seek happiness.... enuf... enuf...
But you do pay for ur mistakes n m still paying....enuf finnaly never seemed to happen.. The strong me was nowher.. lost tooo much like amidst pacific islands to evn try makin an attempt.. Bruised.. n wounded struggling life... But excuse me?? Ho did I get here in this Big huge shit hole in the first place???? ask me n i wd be blank... it wasn ever ever that i realised till date.. no ans to the why.. Probably like innocent love u only had needed care n u return with broken hearts.... Evry day evry min u try to stand up... make a HEAD WAY.. but ther you go down the drains.. not happening.. Finally wen u land up IGNORANCE IS BLISS... u seem to mask it all with empty smiles.. But then u cant survive like this for long... n need to struggle coz how long can this fake u keep urslef going??? wher is the real u??? Its just yst that i learnt new thngs... thts wen i realised.. all of it just in vain!!! nothng actully happened.. me n my lost self made ita Big deal by just contemplating things... May be my prejudice or I don kno wht.. thta wen it burst.. Wht the hell is all this??? why m I doing all this??? I had left it stating a new beginning n enuf of shit... wen did I myself become a huge shit???? naaah... cant be me but sadly yaaa accepted it... Realised my real self..n who still craves for Love.. didn i just yst call it all bullshit??? yep.. coz mayebe it is but then why does it again get into our blood?? why?? WHY WEN U CANT HAVE THINGS WHIC R ALREADY URS???? Its like cant live with it cant live without!!!!... But wen u see some small positives for for that someone.. u wont be seen neither wd be ur prefrences.. Just Plain hopes of that ones prosperity n well being dominates... Its wht.. Its then wen u actually realised its actually over.... its really over... N u need to let go.... Let go... Let go........... Its all over.. N let go......
Past three years have been a Roller Coaster of Emotions!!! Oh wait its wen I actually realised what are emotions in the 1st place.. I realised what it actually feels like wen u in Pain... Realised the soft inside of me which was always in for Brutal Attacks( Dumb ass)... My lacrymatic fluid realeasing nerves had been off for long, finally they realised their functions!! they opened the gates and also drained me away!!! Never have I cried this bad.. But my Jaw muscles did work on n off... Have had times wen unknown smiles used to surface all through!!! But then they didn really last... It probably is my mistake because i never made them stay back... Never made attempts to do so... Probably seeked solace in tears... Had some small things happening, had managed to scale some heights which did take me to conquering small everests in ma life... But still somethng in tht phase also remains unsatisfied,,, The Zest or Zeal to serve better...
Now the recent events.. Moved outta of my dream world into reality.. couldn really see a lot of helping hands.. Realised can count them with my fingers... of one hand thats the number that remain.. (In school i used to think how can mum n dad have such small no of friends.. how can they be so so anti social didn kno just ten yrs i wd be in the same position as them dhhhh learn from Life itself)..
Tough times never last is a book thats lying in ma shelf.. saw it today mrng n had a smile imm... Ya times the best healer... it does.. But ya like burns they would always manifest. Always sayin man u did this to me.. see now how dry n weak n lifeless have I become.. Then u ask.. wht did I do??? unknown mistakes n then they start ling up... U try to run ways but they seem to be so long that they inevitably reach u..... N the guilt that engulps... Nothng can beat that.. Its wht I am in at the moment..Saw my self go thru so so much... never thgt would take all bullshit of anyone on my face.. But was takin in any n everythng.. Simple coz I had lost myself n ma indentity in between all the guilt... U see the beggar who hasn eaten a thing u give him things with Fungus on it his tummy wont deny.. or may be a sponge just takes in everythng up... Accused for wht not... took all up... :(((( But yaa some point realised enuf cant take it anymore.. Cant live with the lost identity and an unknown to self.. Need to get me bak.... need to breath n breath fresh... need to live n seek happiness.... enuf... enuf...
But you do pay for ur mistakes n m still paying....enuf finnaly never seemed to happen.. The strong me was nowher.. lost tooo much like amidst pacific islands to evn try makin an attempt.. Bruised.. n wounded struggling life... But excuse me?? Ho did I get here in this Big huge shit hole in the first place???? ask me n i wd be blank... it wasn ever ever that i realised till date.. no ans to the why.. Probably like innocent love u only had needed care n u return with broken hearts.... Evry day evry min u try to stand up... make a HEAD WAY.. but ther you go down the drains.. not happening.. Finally wen u land up IGNORANCE IS BLISS... u seem to mask it all with empty smiles.. But then u cant survive like this for long... n need to struggle coz how long can this fake u keep urslef going??? wher is the real u??? Its just yst that i learnt new thngs... thts wen i realised.. all of it just in vain!!! nothng actully happened.. me n my lost self made ita Big deal by just contemplating things... May be my prejudice or I don kno wht.. thta wen it burst.. Wht the hell is all this??? why m I doing all this??? I had left it stating a new beginning n enuf of shit... wen did I myself become a huge shit???? naaah... cant be me but sadly yaaa accepted it... Realised my real self..n who still craves for Love.. didn i just yst call it all bullshit??? yep.. coz mayebe it is but then why does it again get into our blood?? why?? WHY WEN U CANT HAVE THINGS WHIC R ALREADY URS???? Its like cant live with it cant live without!!!!... But wen u see some small positives for for that someone.. u wont be seen neither wd be ur prefrences.. Just Plain hopes of that ones prosperity n well being dominates... Its wht.. Its then wen u actually realised its actually over.... its really over... N u need to let go.... Let go... Let go........... Its all over.. N let go......
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