So far so Good!!

Had I written this yesterday the composition would have been so optimistic.. just read One second can change so so many things!! This is so damn true!! and the antonym too a lifetime cant change things at times either :(

August as always had been an awaited month and it sure did get in lots of awe... Got us 2 of the most prized assets!! I feel proud of having made such a decision also the fact that now I know where mom and dad and our cute Lil Mansion will dwell!!

It did get me to Fortuity where in first time I admit M scared.. Shit Scared cant believe all that is happening to me!! The bewilderment doesnt seem to ease. its obvious when your brain tries to foresee stuff simply to avoid despondency. It continues to reassure and makes you live in your own fantasy world never letting you wake up and trust me aortic system has for once got nothing to do with the cerebral system. Mai laakh jatan kar haari !!

I would seem like a damsel in distress as always shit man WTF. I had started 2009 to repudiate the melancholy but its slapped me tight every day on.. Wonder what my sins were? Where has my confidence or self succumbed. My quest for my own self seems impossible. What is it that is going haywire?? and why so? I have clearly not done something which was needed!! Oh good lord please guide me!!

SIMPLEXITY

The palaver some blogs boast caught my eye. What is it that makes the reader affixed onto a text?? One's command over the English language is so easily Crypted be it by Grammar Maven's or be it wizards who mug up cue cards must say by the end the job's done well. Having a canvas here signifies variegated means to bloggers and to me- it served to ease my worries whichever petty ways. Aint here to Flaunt, here to Austere!!!

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Yeh yeh I know I have been busy and missing... had thought of saying hello but didnt. Man what a roller coaster life is... weird weird stuff... New friends new acquaintances and stuff related.. Never thought of as usual but yaaa experience of lifetime... Finally my gaga and my melodramatic out bursts are done with.. U know its like I have just lost a limb thats how integrated it was.

newazz I feel like laughing when I sit back and think abt the past 2 years of my life, what I mean what am I upto... none make sense. . Dont get it how does my brain still permits me to get involved or may be hold interest in stuff... Amusing...

Bet its gona be better than any comedy u have seen or read. But yeh their's so much of uncertainty over any and everything and somehow testing me again.. Trying to resurrect my thoughts and activities now that I am turning a Quarter of Century, Just want answers and hope they are pleasant.

When you turn 25!!

Hey when you getting married?? This is the 100th time I need to answer this question. Why cant people mind there own businesses, its me who has to get married rite.. Dhhhh but you are turning old , ur 25 obvious people will poke there noses also the fact that not only gals, Guys of your age are also getting into wedlock. I will announce it you dont need to enquire is all that I have for defence.

They say everything has a right time so does marriage and it is now.. but aint it an individual affair to be think what is the right time for it to happen to his/ her life? Just because your biological clock is ticking or just cause dad's getting retired or that you would loose all your glow when you are 25 is to be the concern.

It so weird to talk about horoscopes/ castes/ age difference of 5+ and all the stuff you actually have absolutely no faith in. Sitting in front of a Havan n priests chanting mantras.. gosh yaaa its all so so so creepy also to say u got no faith in a puja and then bow in front of lord?

Answer questions about how tall are ya? do you cook ? do you drink etc?? Ridiculous it may sound but how else do you know a person in like a month and take up a call?? The dilemma is too severe to be decoded even.

The Stadium Experience!!!

Semis of IPL shifted last min to Mumbai....

Weekly off shifted to Wednesday from Thursday and there comes a call: Me getting tickets for Mumbai-Bangalore you have an off so lets go. Ok calls and calls ok done lets go.

Call 2: Can you check for tickets online??

Ok pretty decent seats done...

Left for stadium to find chaos and chaos lots of it. One parking corner to other, one gate to another and Kms long line and a SEA of people. To top it rite from security to Police no one knows a shit as to whats happening. One counters opened and shuts after 2 hrs.. next one open again closes.. Finally no option but to let all in without redeemed tickets..

Got into rebel mode and fought with security and fortunately amongst first few animals to get into the stands.. Pluss guys thank the Helicopter celebrities for shortening their lines..

Once in the stands we got to choose the seats and trust me the best ever ones :P

Our initial frustration was smoothened by the first glimpses of the superstars of the evening and surprisingly we could see every minute details and see Sachin and Kumble and Dravid and Bhajji ..

Play started and wow just too amazing to watch, Oh how could I forget the deafening noises for 5 hours surely deafened by the end. But was it amazing to dance and Jump out on every boundary and the biggies. (The Cheerleaders were also rite there shaking their legs) The stadium all digitalized and the marketing around and the entire Royal blue color and all the Gallis and profanity hitting the highest TRP's and not to forget the cricket in itself..

An experience way too memorable, if only I could manage to go for Finals :)

Emotions.............

I dont know what is it thats caused this sudden unease.. One Glimpse and so much can happen or is it nothing?? Sadness or??

Alls become bizarre..

Oh for once I Miss my past... Feels like I left so many things behind but why so??

I guess Question Marks wouldn't end.

Thought many a times why am I a Pessimist , why dont I reco anything good that happened. Why do I reco being hurt instead of being loved, being Yelled upon instead of being spoken into the ears, being called names and stupid comparisons instead of all the Pet names and so on..

Just when you realize an episode is over.... I really need to rethink is it really over??

Yaaa Obvious. One Instance one day doesn't lead to erase all that has happened till date..

Time and tide may be doesnt wait for any..

Smile thats the least I can do coz tears have bidden farewell..

Wonder how would I react if I saw something further.. Still cant bear it.

M I so complicated??

I LIKE:

1. Honesty: Do it only if you can accept it.
2. Music: My type dont bother to make me listen to rest.
3. Travel & nature:
4. Internet.
5. Dancing: Been my earliest of interests and still continues.
6. Photographs & memories associated.
7. Text Msging: All hate it I know
8. Shopping.
9. Earrings & Pearls: My prized possessions.. Footwear my new fetish.
10. Skoda Octavia: Black or a Navy Blue or a Bottle green.
11. SRK....
12. Reading on and off.
13. Being loved: Who doesnt.
14. Being Complimented .
15. Tandoori Chicken, Pani puri, spegetti etc
16. Budweiser & Screwdriver.
17. Dark Chocolates.
18. Black & Green: though Red suits me better.
19. Branding: Turns virtual to real.
20. Walking on the ramp: Never thought would get to do this that tooo so many times now.
21. My mom's food.
22. Rains & smell of wet mud.
23. My School Days.
24. Hot Water Baths.
25. Knowing Fundamentals : Try to gather info about the smallest to the complicated
26. Playing T T.
27. Riding my bike at my pace
28. Laughing my lungs out on stupid stuff.
29. My diamond ring.
30. My space.

I dislike:

I am self contradictory.

1. Lies Deception & False emotions.
2. Screeching Noises.
3. Nagging.
4. Being proven wrong.
5. Whiskey
6. Introverts.
7. Prejudice.
8. Accepting the fact that I am average....
9. My jealousy and emotional outbreaks. Emotional Atyachar
10. Karela, Gawar, papaya.. too many.
11. To see my bank statements.
12. Not been updated about the world.
13. List of people I hate.
14. Having no money to shop.
15. Anger.