So what All am I scared of???

Sudden drop in body temperature or for that matter experiencing sudden chill, sign of being scared, felt this after ages and man is it weakening. Wonder how can I show so much of consistency in my scores dont seem to budge beyond a point how can this be possible?? But yaa thats what the situation is leading me to

Feel of facing the entire lot of well wishers who have beared me along or helped me all this while, or looking into moms eyes someone who works all day long and I do nothing but sit and eat or the biggest critique me myself how would I look into the mirror? This is all so horrific :(

I took this up as an assignment and cant seem to handle this repeated failure.. I call for help serious help..